Oh, how proud I was of myself. Knowing theories of histories and the readings of the philosophies and and and all that. Now, I am doing history-history. Of the Rural Transformation type. And I know nothing. And I can’t even seem to do enough reading to know very much at all. And in these essays… not a time for projection. An order of facts. A push for a referenced chosen idea. But I can’t seem to find the facts. Oi. So I can’t back my idea up.

Returns to writing new literary fiction novel where can do anything one wants and no need to back it up wipes brow with relief and smiles